u obviously know why and u can sense it. why do u jus choose to blur.

slept qt late las night.. like 3 plus? was online talking to lion and hwee and msging eve.. and somehow reading the bible too.. gosh... 1wk plus for it to come and i am scared. for one, i am not a serious speaker and cannot speak well in front of so many ppl.. wads moreee.... 16 ppl? or even more? goshhhh.. well, shall jus pray for God to speak to me and be with me even as i share the word.... hmmm.. GOD! gimmmmme a passsage. read the bible and a few passages came in.. but dunno if it is really from God.. CANDY! i know how u feel! garh. and wads more... my sista took her bible back todayy!! praise God she went for biblestudy wit her fren today aft so many yrs of backsliding.... so happy for her.. but, it means i have no bible nowww.. and it meanss.. i cant read the bible...! arghh! nvm. i shall jus read the bible online;) God..!! speak to me! gimme a suitablepassage that will speak to the gals and thatthey would be able to apply it in life. AMEN.

jus came back from grad. sorry to say, the grad was abit boring and sianned. was msgging eve all the way. HA. until she came to fetch me.. hee.. thx lpp&mm. however, the dancing comp was qy hilarious and funnny.. jasmine sure makes a gd dancer.. and vit did a fabulous job too... went to walk wit audd for awhile and erm.. sorry audd.. leg really too tired to walk out to pp alreaddy..wonder howcan ppl walk on heels for the whole day.i will jus die.yarh.and candy was so higghhh! hahha.. they came pick me.. den at the traffic lighhht... we decided to call suang.. and went in again to fetch suang. went to suang's hostel to help her break open her lauggage.. and praise God.. candy did it! woohoo.. i wasnt in the reight attire to do this kinda stuff. HAHA. kk... flies back to the pages ofthe holy thingg..

farewell jus ended. it has been so fast! my 4 yrs in cedar has ended. well, there were the good and the bad times there la.. obviously, the goodshall stayy.. and the bad... bubyeee- haha. no la... 4 yrs in throws... woohoo.. thats so fast. at first went into cedar cos i wanted to run(ppl out there. stop laughing!) but somehow landed up in throw.. butt.. yayy! am glad i went into throws. met manymany nice people there.. from ruoying's batch to hwei yun's batch and my batch.. den jm's batch.. amelia's batch.. and the list goes on and on.. frens made there were woahh! they were the one who went thru all that tough and sometimes madness trainings with me.. though we were individuals competing out there, but am glad cedar throws` has always remained bonded as one. ;) love u guys man...
okkays, back to the farewell today. was supposed to go at 2 plus.. but somehow we went at 5plus 6.. starting was a little boring.. and my poor juniors were starving!! they had not enough food. sorrie. but i din eat much too la.. but the satay was nice. ha. sat on the beach and went to walk with auddd for awhile.. den had performances and all... the throwers performance was abit luan.. and theykeep going further away from us.. thinking that we would eat them up! garh! ha.. aft that was slightly distracted as mr seem played hide and seek with me!!! he is so cheeeeky! hmphhhh` he arhh.. nv knew he was so "childish".. haha. by the timei went back.. sawthe jumpers perform.. woaahh.. some of them really can dance!! haha.. celeste!! u were funny! keep laughinnng! hahaha.. aft that they gave out the presents.. and my sweeeet daddy gave me a hugg.. haha. din really say much infront ofthem.. had no idea wad to say.. hahha..split into our various grps and had a time of sharinggg.. hahah.. throwers simply roccccck.. ;)
went to macs aft that.. crapped and make so much noise there.. took pics too!! kersh!!! pls upload! hahaa.. on the way home, read the stuffs and peeped atthe present. oh my gosh! think they reallyprepared alot forthisthingg.. as in the throwers la.. heard div jus pushed everything to shalom to do..ohwells. nothing's new.. hahaha.. anyway, think they really prepared alot for our present.. haha though las minute.. but yes, i still love it loadss. my juniors arejusso sweeet little thinggs.. hahah.. those notesthey wrote were really touching and encouragingg.. thx to all. love you allloadss.. am surellly gonna miss u guyss.. ;)

hais. this weeek has been a dunno wad week. been so bloody drained by the papers this wk.. in a state of depression. almost everyone has alr ended their paper.. those haven still left with mcq only.. but me? i still got Bio! grrrrrrrr.. combined sc was the 1st to start.. but the las to end. this is nonsense. aud is out partyinggg.......... suang at enc (i wanna go)......... i dunno. i feel so sad la. so many things happened this week too.. hais.

scrammmmmmmmmmm all of u.

no one knows how torturing it is to live life like this. its 1 months plus alr.. my heart weighs a thousand tonnes.

why did everything have to become so complicated. and why of all ppl u gotta be pulled into this? if it werent for u.. i wouldn even b in this whole incident la. grrrrrrrrr. this is too torturing alr. and i cant bring myself to trsust any words from u anymore. i am sorry.. but wad u have done is too much alr. to think i trusted u so much. lies aft lies. i jus cant bring myself to forget it.

las night was a sad night. cried myself to slp. was jus thinking wad this world has become. why does everything seem so superficial. why did u have to act this way. and why did u have to handle things this way and not keep your word. was qt glad when u said u aint gonna bother.. which means there was less 1 person in it.. and less ppl to be accounted for. but everything was not as ez as it seems la.. u totally dsigust me.


`depressed kidddd-

stop being so critical. dun u think wad u are doing now jus so reflects on wad u have been saying about ppl? lyn is like so innocent.. and u dislike her until like that.. u say she flirts.. dun u think u do it more? more to the extent. why dun u jus look urself in the mirror b4 commenting on others ard u.. yupss.

hmmms.. studied today. siannn-ed... other den studying.. there is nothing that i can do.. but as if i really studdy all day all night. ha. had a nice lil personal talk with her todayyyy ;).. haha.. so funny. hs been longg aft all the constant crappish stuffs.. hahaha.. but all in all.. its still someting that i will treasure... even until the end of time.


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reached home like 1 todayy. had a qt long convo with eve in the car jus now as she marked my work. haha.. thhe way we thouht about 14nov camb trip training was so funny.. haha.. the indirect yet understooood why convo.. hahaha.. cant help it too.. acccccts blur- heh. anyway, went into some serious topic aft that.. woah.. qt saddening in a sense... but praise God. perhaps He jus got His way of doing stuffs.. for one, His ways are def greater than ours. His ways are meant to prosper us. wadeva it is, to man on earth.. death may b a sad thing.. but somehow, i jus like the way Christians takes death - to be reunited with God. that sounds so woahhh.. aft all, death isnt such a sad thingg ;)

okkays. many will think i am mad by saying this. haha. ;)

ahahaha. funnily i ended up in xr's hse today.. how i got there? haha.. it was weird. anyway, messed her place up by making her take out all her photos.. and woah! she has a dozen of photos.. and erm.. her medal are like.. wahhhhhhhhhhhhh.. never ending.. so many.. and she is jus such a determined gal when it comes to tt.. and pro kid.. she went to so many places to compete.. her photos seriously like those seen on tv during olympics.. super pro. cant stand it.
a math paper was ok la.. i dun really know wad to expect.. stumbled on the first few questions and i panicked alr.. so wad happened to the later parts of the paper.. i dare not think.. God bless me.

hais. i am scareddddddddd`
a math suddenly seem tough.. though i was once good at it. jus looked thru wad i needed to know.. and realised its alot! o level is more of really concepts and not appplicationn.. dun read too much into a question!!!

ss today was ok la.. jus that could finish the paperrr.. yikes.. hope can get 30 and above.. thought it isnt v gd alr.. but thank God swiss came out... cos that was the topic i was most familar wit? hahaha.. anyway, been at thomson cc.. hahaha. realised its qt a cool place but.. the study room is far too small.. and got the sleepy enviro.. oh wells, but wad to do.. bishan cc is too over populated. ha. and we saw some ppl play bball on sun.. qt funnyy.. and funny to see their expression.. haha.. hee. sorrie guys. and some ppl took pictures of us.. not knowing there is something called the reflection!