wdstock!! love uuu from the ends of the east to the west and from the north to the south. ahaha. i have no idea wad i am talking but.... today was a mad + njoyable dayy! :)

i wanna thankGod for the family He has blessed me wit.
sometimes, i think it is really amazing how He can bring ppl form all walks of life.. people that we dun even know originally together. to jus care and share for each other. :) how awesome does that sound!

aud.ber.butt.candice.candyloke.candyquek.celeste.
clar.coredelia.cuiyun.dannylee.dannyloke.daphne.
daven.dora.evelyn.fiona.gina.gloria.grace.huimin.
hwee.ice.jiasheng.joanne.joce.jodie.johnbai.kenny.
kevin.laurel.linde.linnet.lionel.liting.mrssim.nessa.
nitaya.pat.Pslaifun.PsRol.rachel.renette.robin.
ronghui.rujia.ruiwen.sampoh.sarah.sarah.seon.
shannon.sharon.sheryl.shixiong.stevie.susan.suang.
sweedy.terry.tiffany.tor.valerie.wangxing.xiangru.xinni.
yaohan.

sorrie if i missed out anyone.. but thanks all! :)
i really wouldn how far i could last without uu all.. the blessings from God.

i am so sick of everything. of jus waking up each day and facing everything. tml will be a better day.. i think that sound so ironic. each day u discover so many many things.. most of the time.. not v gd ones. argh.
i am so tired of thinking for everyone ard me.... of jus trying to make every happppy and cheering them up. when me, myself is like so totally gone-case but puts on a mask to hide it all. i am so tired of putting others before self.. cos each time i see everyone so happy(of cos i am happy for them).. but when i look back at myself, i realise, i am in such a mess. why den should i go bother abt others. but i cant help it. thatsjus my character.. like it anot.. i am like that. but inside me, i am really suffocating.. having to deal wit so many things. even like now.. choosing of courses and all.. me,myself alr zhi shen nan bao.. but guess wad..i am jus like.. "wasting" my time helping my fren search for courses. why? cos she din do well, and she darn depressed.. and having her to search for her own courses.. we think she would jus commit suicide. her pts are really in the middle of nowhere.. 19.. and v hard to chose forherr.. and mine.. no diff... 18... and the cut of points for the courses i may wan to do are all like 15,16,17.. that sounds so crap.. u see, i alr have no way out for myself.. and i am jus being a "busybody" for herr.. argh. i am really sick n tired of it all. suddenly, i jus feellike staying at home day and night. locked in my own room. away from everything. churchcellschhchoicesfrensEVERYTHING

if i say i am alright, i would have to put on a mask that i think wun last that long.
if i say i am alright, i would jus be unrightly lying.
i thought i was able to handle it all, and jus know that God was in control. wadeva the outcome, i will jus give thanks. and indeed, i did.. God alr showed me roughly how much i would get b4 mon.. and i really do thank God for wad he has alr blessed me wit cos He has alr opened doors to His work, and yet closed a chapter of my life "unmemorably". but the whole process aft that seems so diff. when ppl jus ask and ask and ask, it was something jus so real and something that i could not run away from. and too bad, that is how u are judged in the world. even during crush, it was total madness. wadsmore, i was wit suang. hohoho. wad else could i jus say.

i couldn handle it the way i should have or the way i think i could.
:(

even as i jus heard wad suang asked ps in eve's car... i really had nothing to say. the ans that ps gave suang is jus so real and true out there. and it is something that will be so diff to solve. and it all jus brings back memories.. painful ones.. yikes. 2rs ltr, uu still call so manymany times and msged so manymany times. but i am sorrie, i chose to ignore. if u ever know my blog, which i think u do cos i know u have your sources.. i din do well. yups. so stop asking for i am not gonna reply uu. i know i kinda screwed up ur Os 2 yrs ago.. but that was all at your own will. dunno wad is gonna happen to uu if u read this, but all that happen was in the past.. and u shd know wadeva happened was toally wrong.. and i am left wit no words. wadeva the future holds, face it boldly.