it seems.. i am really dreading next wk..
1) 3 presentations.. - its all half done...
2) i gotta wear formal.. 3 out of the 5 days... how argh does that sound and i really cant be bothered to go get anything prepared. think i will jus wear nothing to sch!
3) it WAS suppose to be a wk i will look forward to when i was much younger.. but somehow, its jus part and parcel of life alr and its nothing special anymore. the excitement has faded. its jus another day. quick come and go. its jus gonna be another long day in sch plus presentations when it used to be a holiday for me LAST TIME.... hmm...... but i am dated! ok. i am undated!
4) i hope to see a clear blue sky. but i know it aint easy and it wun happen that quick. oh well.. pressin on together. //the process

yes. positive i must be!!
butbutbut...
NO! POSITIVE!!!!!!

my life seems so carefree, seems so nothing to do.. but in a matter of fact, it isnt. i jus cant be bothered to do anything and jus choose to sit on wadeva i have to do. this is not good at all! i ought to do something about it.. but wad? i also dunno. i jus feel so sians and argh to start doing my work.
this jus brings me back to my secondary sch days.. when my work jus piles and i can hardly be bothered about it.. but now poly.. its totally different. all the take-home work are all projects.. dun wan to do also cannot. sometimes i ask, what is the purpose of studying..? to get a gd job? and wad is the purpose of getting a job? to survive in this world... hmmm.. sometimes, i really see no point in studyin... but den again, the world requires us to do so to survive.. urgh. oh yea.. to add on, exams timetable are out! oh crap..

Date	Subject	Time
19/09/2005 (mon)	WCD	1800-2010
22/09/2005 (wed)	Acc	0900-1110
26/09/2005 (mon)	ITOS	1400-1600
28/09/05 (wed)	FOM	1400-1710
30/08/05 (fri)	UWOS	1400-1610

thank God for sol today. tink ps hee guan is woahh!!! he teaches one kind.. hr dun follow the notes.. and i really prefer lessons to be like tht.. less theory.. more interaction.. more real life examples.. i mean.. lesson when it comes to not having any exams or anything.
anyway, have a cool time with parents and grandparents today! woohoo! they are one kind of funny.. and i cannot stand them. managed to clear some work.. and woohoo! yayy!

a promise i make to you.
nothing would change for the worse, but instead for the best!
we will go thru this together. be it stormy or sunshine. it may not be easy.. but here we go, with the power of Daddy up there!
love you jus as much! :)

yayy! me happie kid! congrats niang!!!!! woohoo!!! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):)actually i am qt scared.. i dunno why... but yayy! i am still happy!! :)really cant imagine wad would things be like in the future! anyway, i am here for you! k i am thinking too much..

sigh. i am vvvv sad now. in WCD class. talk to loke until cry in class... stupid right? guess we were jus talking about something that is so true.. and in our hearts we are jus all feeling it. but jus dun have the time to talk about it or do anything about it.. its like.. everywhere we go.. we can feel it... but the situation was nv right to talk about it.. it is something that hurts.. something that is raw.. something that we hope it nv happen. but guesss when uu run, its like that... sacrifices i would say.. but it hurts to see it like this. i miss loke. i miss eve. i miss the times when we would meet up every other night to jus go out and have FUN! and i really mean fun! no work. no markings. no anything.. but jus enjoying each other's company.. those were the days.. would there be more of it? would there even be anymore i ask? we are all so busy. yes and loke do miss it too.. she is like crying in office!! arghhhhhhhh!!! eve.. do you miss it!!?! sighh! but i really wanna take this time to thank God for the both of you.. life would nv be same without uu all... eve, loke, you are vvvv precious to me!!! love you all loads loads.
loke: thanks for being that joy in my life. thanks for being the someonme always there for me. thanks for all the joy and laughter... esp your loudloud laughter. we have ran the race.. got so far.. dun give up ok? ming is always here for you yahh??
eve: thanks for all the care and concerns. thanks for your little yet significant actions. i am indeed blessed by you beyond words. you are a one in a million niang.. you never fail to care for me.. and nv fail to light up my life. sm;)es.

i miss audd too! i miss those cedar times... i miss the early mornings at the track. i miss those time where i would slp in class and she would wake me up and poke me.. pinch me.. and stick the pen thru my hair.. i miss those hair cutting sessions and even going out with lmk. and those car rides. i miss audd's company in sch.. if only we were in the same sch.. if only we were in the same class.. though we are all studying in the west... but its like.. so near yet so far! bestie! i really do miss you!

am i stupid or wad....

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO! someone acted cute las nite! super fumnny.. and kept sha jiao-ing!! haha.. not very typical of someone of your age!! aahhaha! jkjkjkjk! but it was a funny sigh. couldn help but laugh. sorrie! ooi! YOU! but uu better get well soon ok? uu sounded real bad.. yet cute!ops. hmmm..
hahaha. walked to sch with jakes. was funny at the mrt... he blended in with the crowd.. and it took me awhile to notice him. sians. its time for sch alr! haha..

-dream come thru for you hor- keep diturbing me! hmph!!!!! hahah.. :P

oh ya! ed gave me the work for FOM liao.. shall open it now. ha

had a gd time at pulau ubin. great time spent with the primers. my grp super funny.. guan tdee is one kind of a leader... hahaha.. "she" led the group well.. hee. the girls in my grp is so so so funnny.. esp yvonne and shirley. had a gerat talk with yvonne on the first nite.... she was super open.... POTENTIAL! hahaha.. ops. anwyay, the living condition was alright lah.. not that bad... but think cambodia living conditions better.. ironic eh? haha.. think the girls and perhaps some guys were qt taken aback when they first stepped into the place.. thanks God for cambodia.. if not i think i would have died there? HAHA! really can see the primers grp getting closer by each event! praise be to God! :)

NAING. pls do takkaire of yourself. better go and see mr teeth man and mr healthy man soon ok? i will bug you!! bug you until you burst burst and burst! BAO!!! ahaha.. evelyn road. jasmine road. liang court.. hmm wonder who was the "lame" gal who came up with that!! *stares*

i miss cell. i miss church.

hmm.. at macs now. its 830 and in half an hours time gotta go for lesson liao. i am so so so so tired. slept in the car all the way from home to bugis. wad a pig. and its really those kind cannot open up my eyes one. dunno wad i am so dead tired also. now i jus feel as though my eyes are gonna close any time soon man! hmm.. there is camp over the wkend.. hope i dun die there.. hope i will survive thru the living conditions.. heard its qt bad eh??? hmmmm.. God bless me ba! pray to have a wonderful time with the primers.. well, i have got acc test on mon. and i seem qt unprepared for it.... but i will not circum to saying DIE if not i think i will get scolded... HOR? hahaha. kk shall go revise while waiting to go to sch.. bubyee..! i am tiredd!!!! argh!

sigh. i hate poly sch term. i totally hate it when its so different from the others! argharghargh! stupidity. sigh-
hmm.. i think i shall jus act blur and not bring anything n jus bring those indicated on the list. dun like it when i have to "act" here and there.. pretend that i dunno this and that.. when i actually know.. nvm, i am only a yr 1 here somehow. shall keep low profile.

oh yea.. jus found out that details and all have all been sent out. i din get it once again.. if i was jus a normal yr 1, i think i would have jus left alr. wad am i talking?? i am a normal yr 1 lah! a better way to put it, if it werent for God.. i would have jus left... hmmm.. thank God for jacob.. he is gonna forward me. :)

"To the weak I became weak, that I might win the weak. I have become all things to all men, that I might by all means save some." 1 Cor 9:22

totally irritated//

poor poly students are all in sch now. sad man. sighh! why dun we enjoy wad the JC ppl enjoys? hmm.. this is unfair!!! hahaha. i declare my class is mad. one mad bunch.. so noisy!!ok lah.. though its a chore to come to sch.. but glad to have this m ad and siao class!!! haha.. forever laughing and full of crapp and nonsense that nv fails to lighten up the atmosphere! woohoo~

woohoo! camp was great! its over.. am indeed very blessed by the guys.. they are one kind of nice and capable. well, think everyone would agere the camp was great! the environmnet, the people and of course God! I would say that the committee did a very good job! and all these was only possible thru the grace of God! for me, it was basically jus getting back to Him.. and drawing near to Him. haven been very faithful in doing qt and spending time wit Him lately. it was a good time for me there... was supposed to go to indoor stadium at night for hillsongs.. but geuss everyone was really super tired.. and we also had our own "hillsongs" there!! it was damn coo lah! butt is jus a pro drummer. cannot stand her. one really nice babe! thanks for praying for me! ;) am indeed blessed by you!! oh yah!!! paul!!! he sang thank you for giving. i like his voice. very nice!!! another pro guitarist. ahahaha... the whole band team did a very very very good job! *thumbs up!* think God has really blessed us! sm;)es. thank God for audd..!! really hope she would be able to go thru this area of her life. know she struggles.. but i also know that she trying... and trying real hard!! am indeed very encourage by you bestie.. :):) am always here for you okays?? only a call or sms away yahh! loves* press on girl.. you are not alone yah.. uu have me, eve, joce and everyone else in the family.. and God!! muacks_ thank God for the camp!!!!!!
well, spend some time talking to aud with eve las night! ultra funny lah! wanna die.. aud is one kind of funny. keep laughing laughing... she seemed qt interested in eve's love life. heehee.. funny lah. cannot stand them... anyway, am sure all will turn out well! yayy! thank God and praise God!!!!
back to reality.. it time for lessons.. sians. today long day somemore. hope it ends fast. slept qt late las night.... 3 pluss?? thanks to someone la! haha! no lah. even if it means to have talk to you for a whole night and dun slp... i would gladly have sleepless nights! ahahahhaha..

anyway, YOU!! hope camp was great for you and do get well soon ok?? take medication! oh no!!! i din take when i got home las night!!!! oh no! but i am ok alr lah!! not that flu-ish alr!!

and YOUYOUYOU!!! PLS TAKKAIRE of yourself ok? its qt a busy week for you.. do take time to rest and JUS REST ok!!! loves*

starting sandcastle building today! yay!! skipped account lecture today in the morning.. came to sch at 1 for FOM lecture.. and here i am in FOM lecture now.. i wanna pull out my nose alr!!!! sigh.. cough is catching up wit me.. my chest feels a little chokeddddd up!ltr got account tutorial.. really hope it will end early.. dun wna stay in sch...
been super moody lately.. and alot of slightest things tend to irritate me alot.. arghh! dun like it when i am like that.. cannot stand it.. and in the end, affect the ppl ard me too.. sigh!! cannot! i shall not be easily irritated!!! arghh.. okokokokok..i shall not be oversensitive... wad comes my way, let it come.. wad doesn, i shant go think and bother.
kkkk my blog will be left unupdated for the next few days.. haha.. seee youuuuu all! or mayb there is connection at campsite?? haha. but doubt so lahh.. cos the place so ulu..

sighhh! big sighh...

i miss you. and i miss you too. should know whoo uu all are lahh!! arghh! hahah. if uu aint sure if its uu.. dun anyhow guess.. no pt.. cos no use.. cos uu sure get it wwrong! haha. i am talking nonsense.. but yes!! i miss you and you lahh!!!!! arghh!!!!
YOU n YOU!!! pls dun be upset ok? cheer uppppppp!!! God will blesss youuuuuuuuu and youuuu one! think my this post for the most "yous" HAHAHA.. YOUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!! so sad.. all aone having lunch now.. bet you miss me too!!! YOUUUU!!! freezing away.... do takkaire of your health ok? ALL OF YOU ARE COMMANDED TO BA HAPPPPPY FOREVER AND ALWAYS cos ming loves youuu!!!!!

hopeless case of studying. oh well, anyway, my life has been so messy that i cant even remember wad happened yesterday.. or do i even have a life??? hahaha.. ok i am talking crap. anyway, sch is officially starting tml.. sigh. think i am gonna pon sch on fri... hohoho! sure kena scolded one.. but but but... FRI is really a long day... arghh..

las night: hope all would be fine+//

woohoo!! gonna build sandcastles this week!!! yayy!! looking foward to the camp..!!!!! yayy! and RIO next wk.. pray that mum/dad wun make noise man.. hmmm.. anyway, was jus thinking thru some stuffs... perahps the problem jus lie wit me alone..