after las night.. i will learn to look at the 99% good instead of the 1% bad of things. would be a happier person that way.. think i think too much.. anyway, i will stop this viscious cycle cos it seriously aint doing me any good.. late nights has jus been repeating itself with its own agendas every night. but the good thing is.. i wake up forgetting wad happen the las night. i yearn to wakup and dun like to go to bed... I WILL STOP THIS.

haha. i am on a marking spree! lol. qt fun! hee! anyway, me kena tortured today..... REAL BADLY! KENA TICKLED!! niang is too naughty!!! though in pain still got the cheeky look.. and only response when i react to the tickles! tsk!! *shakes head* but anyway, if that makes her happier and more comfortable.. den.. yayy! was really torture man.. haha.. but think she is going thru worse... so yah! i am here for you to tickle!! hee! press on!
anyway, i am on hols now.. sleep late.. wake up late..really feel like some pig!!!!!!! someone......... wake me up at like 9! haha.. but doubt i will ever get up! lol. anyway, jas says that my blog got prob... hmm.. so its time to submit this post and see how it goes!!! *cross fingers*

i really feel like reviving the old days of night cycling.. i really wanna find a place where i can shout and scream out loud!!

jus came back from dedication service.. was qt a argh nite. trying to cope with my own emotions and all. but thank God for the dedication service. walked in... b4 i knew anything, i started to tear.. the presence of God was really strong. too bad, missed the starting.. looked ard.. everyone was kneeling, so focussed on the Lord, repenting on their sins.. wad an awesome sight. think the ending part was qt good too.. prayed for the church.. and the pastors.. think pastor khong brought up a very good point.. and i hope that those who had been persecuting him in his works.. was able to get the point ps khong was trying to bring across.. really qt sad that some people actually could think that way.. nvm.. ps khong! jia you! :) the army of God is behind you. ps eugene nv fails to lighten up the mood! woohoo! no wonder he is the youthnet pastor.. he is one kind of funny.. thank God for him... really felt very proud to have a father like him over youthnet jus now. anyway, after that.. when to see loke! omg! i really miss her alotalot! not long after... she is gonna fly off to SL alr... :( sis!! i am gonna miss you loadies!!!!!!!!

with greater expectations comes greater dissappointments. so... ADJUST expectations :)
accept it. things will not or rather.. can never be the same..

why must i go thru all these?? get railed at over nothing. as much i dun wan to be affected, but somehow its still difficult. though i know its not on purpose... but.... nvm. i will manage. :)
// You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up, I’d be a fool
You are my all in all//

loke! i miss you lahs! hope you are coping on fine yah. sister is always here for you and will be prayin for you!! takkaire yah! lovesloves--

i have officially became a full time pig! gosh! and i reckon thats how i am gonne spend my holidays!!! arghh!! noooooo.. slept and slept and slept today. no idea why i had such a bad headache since in the afternoon.. on and off sitll can feel it now.. like got some strain in the head... den sometimes move to the neck.. but mainly in the head.. super horrible. i dun like the feeling at all... anyway, i so wana go sl!!! argh! why my parents dun let?? i am like 17! k i know lah.. the have their concerns.. so God says.. obey your parents!! so i shall! this yr cant.. next yr sure can one!! hee. anyway, the baby is so ultra cute!!! pei eve go see doc today.. and she did the ultra scan!! gosh.. its really ultra cute! can see hands and legs.. and head.. and even the eyes and nose!!!!!! gosh!!! cant believe it! God's creation is so miraculous.....! woohoo!

was jus readin a mail i wrote some time back.. and i cried. think it is something that really meant alot to me? something that i hold qt dearly to me. but somehow, like it anot... as time pass, things will change.. and the last para of it... still stands... :
"jus wanna thank God for you.. and i release this frenship into God's hand.. cos its really not my "power" to have any control over it.. even if 1 day things change, i would thank God for the memories we once had.. God could have jus chose to not let out paths meet.. God could have jus chose to make this a direct relationship.. but he chose to do more than that. and i do thank God for it.. and till the end of time, you would be someone special to me.. as much as its within my control.. things will not change lah.."
thank you God for the blessing.. and the promise once made to YOU still stand! cheer up ok! sm;)es. love++

to those who are thinking.. it not about wad you are thinking! :pP